Showing posts with label Boston Marathon. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Boston Marathon. Show all posts

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Boston Marathon!!! 3:06:54!!!! New PR!!!

I did it!!! A year and a half after running the race that got me to Boston, a year and a half of a long, bumpy road that saw an injury that never fully healed, and that saw me decide at the last minute not to run the New York City Marathon this past fall, I went to Boston, hungering for redemption, and ran the race of my life! Not only did I requalify for Boston, not only did I smash my PR by over two minutes on a much more difficult course, but I broke every possible goal I had set for myself. After a year and a half of disappointments, I am back, stronger than ever, with a renewed passion for running, a love of everyone who helped get me here, and a drive to be the best I can be.


I don't even know where to start. But I think it's fitting to note, as shown in the picture below, that I went to Boston knowing that I had the most amazing support I could have asked for. Over 30 people I knew made the trip to Boston wanting to see me have a great run. My parents flew in from California to cheer for me. I knew many more in New York and elsewhere were constantly refreshing their computers to track my every move. I spent the last hours before the race with the best of friends. And I was encouraged and supported every step of the way for the final long stretch by one of my closest friends in the world. The whole thing was just a wonderful, wonderful experience, and I will never forget how so many of you did so much to give me the most amazing time of my life. Thank you!


The night before the race, 27 Front Runners and friends joined together at Antonio's of Beacon Hill, the same place we went to last year, for a grand pre-race carbo-loading dinner. We took over almost the entire restaurant! It was the perfect way to spend the time before a big race calming my nerves and reminding myself that so many people were pushing me along the way, and that regardless of the time I ran, I was so blessed to have the support of so many great people in my life.

The food was great, just like last year. Mike pre-ordered a bunch of pastas for the table, so there was no long wait or difficult decision making. My favorite was the penne with broccoli and chicken, but we also got linguine with pesto, and a fusilli with marinara. The homemade fusilli was so much fun, its long corkscrews were like eating little pasta Slinkys.



One of the highlights of the evening was when Koach Kelsey handed each of us who were running the marathon 10 individual M&M's. It's one of Kelsey's pre-race rituals; long ago, the night before a big New York City track meet, Kelsey happened to have exactly 10 M&M's after dinner, and the next day, he had an amazing race. He now made sure to have exactly 10 M&M's before each of his big races, and I felt lucky and special to be able to share in this tradition with him.


The biggest moment of the night, though, was Kelsey's customary pre-race pep talk. Anyone who has run a marathon with Front Runners over the past several years knows exactly what this means. Check your baggage with your bag, he said. There are a million reasons to slow down or give up during a marathon; all you need is one reason to keep you going; find that one reason and have it take you to the finish.


I knew what my one reason was going to be. During dinner, Steve sent me a text message that almost made me cry. He said, "Your training will pay off and you are going to make a lot of people happy tomorrow." It was exactly what I needed to hear. I knew I had put in the right training. I knew I was prepared to run a great race. But most of all, I knew that so many people, particularly my Front Runners family, would be so proud of me for running my best race. I decided to make that my motivation--to make people as proud of me as I am about being a Front Runner. This club has done so much for me over the past five years, taking me, a non-running, out of shape smoker, and turning me into an athlete, a marathoner, a Boston Qualifier. I was so happy to run in honor of Front Runners New York, and to wear its logo on my singlet. And I knew that that motivation would carry me to the finish line.


I slept surprisingly soundly that night. Monday morning, I woke up, ready to go. Kelsey and I met Jerry at Boston Common at 6:25 to catch the bus to Hopkinton. Last year, I remember it was only a few minutes' wait, but this year was probably at least 45 minutes. On the bus, I had my breakfast of a Dunkin' Donuts coffee cake muffin--650 delicious calories in a stomach-friendly easily digestible treat (it's Kelsey's usual pre-marathon breakfast; I'm now looking forward to long training runs so I can have a reason to eat more of these muffins...they're really yummy!).

The drive took forever. Having been hydrating for two hours until that point, Kelsey and I both had a pressing bathroom issue to contend with on the bus, which was seriously delayed because of all the traffic going to Hopkinton. Luckily, we were able to improvise. A Gatorade bottle and coffee cup were involved. I suspect other people on the bus had the same idea.

By the time we got to the Athletes' Village, it was close to 9am, and we didn't have much time to spare. We made one final bathroom visit (where we randomly found Janice and took the picture below), checked our bags, and headed off to the start corrals.


At the start, I found Daniel, another Front Runner who was in my corral. He said he was going for about a 3:05, so I made a mental note to keep him in front of me throughout the start.

And then we were off! It was exhilarating! I felt so excited and fortunate to be a part of this race, one of the greatest and most storied sporting events in history.

But it didn't take long for me to focus on the running. Anyone who knows the Boston Marathon knows that the first six miles are generally downhill. And you always hear people say that Boston is made or broken on how fast you run those first six miles. Run too fast, and your quads take such a pounding that they become mush by the time the hills of Newton come 16-20 miles later. Instead, you always hear people say, take the first six miles conservatively.

Kelsey thinks of it differently. It's not about how fast or slow you run the first 10K; it's about how your feet strike the ground. Run too fast, and your feet will be pounding down the hill and your quads will be destroyed. But slowing down against the natural pull of gravity means forcing your feet to brake with each step and increasing the ground's force against those same quad muscles. Instead, run lightly, with the feet tapping the ground and picking right up, without the constant stomp-stomp-stomping that people so often do when running down hills. That would prove to be very wise advice.

I was wearing a customized terrain-adjusted 3:08 pace bracelet (available here), which I configured to give me a "fairly even effort," a "fairly slow start," and a "medium fade." It had listed the pace of my Mile 1 (mostly downhill) as 7:27, the exact same pace it listed for mile 21 (mostly uphill, including Heartbreak Hill). I was skeptical. A different terrain-adjusted 3:08 pace bracelet that I got from Nike said I should do that first mile at 6:55, over 30 seconds faster. So I was a little confused. I ended up just deciding that I would use the pace band that let me start off slower, although I would not fret too much if I ended up being slightly faster than its prescribed times.


Mile 1 ended up being 7:15, or 12 seconds faster than goal. I thought that was within the range of fine. So I just made sure to keep going forward, picking up my legs with each step. Then Mile 2 came: 6:54. Eeek! 25 seconds faster than goal time. That was clearly too fast. I tried to reel it in a bit, being careful not to brake with each step. Miles 3-6 were all 5-12 seconds within my goal pace, so that was better.

To be honest, I don't really remember too much of the first 6 miles except trying not to go too fast. But once I got to the Framingham train station at Mile 6, the race kind of started for me. That's where we began our "Blue Line Run" two weeks ago when we ran the last 20 miles of the course (plus 2 extra miles), so I was now in familiar territory. I started dividing the course up into memorable landmarks. I knew, for example, that at Mile 10, we would go through downtown Natick, and then hit the Dunkin' Donuts where we picked up Matt two weeks earlier. Sandi and her crew would be at 11, the Wellesley girls at 13, the first Newton hill at 16, and Mikey waiting for me at 19.

The next several miles were all about 5-10 seconds faster than goal pace. I felt, however, like I had settled into my proper pace, and I felt good. I started feeling comfortable enough to enjoy the scene around me, noticing more the other runners and spectators. There was a cute runner in a speedo.  There was another cute runner wearing a "glee" singlet (hmm....). The spectators were wonderful.

At Mile 11, I was running with Daniel. I mentioned to him that there should be a group of Front Runner cheerers coming up. And sure enough, a few seconds later, Sandi, Leah, Katrina and A.J. were on the left screaming their heads off. I was on the right side, and must have annoyed a few runners as I darted across the street to say hi to them. But it was great to see them, and it definitely helped me to get to the next landmark: Wellesley College.


Everything they say about the Scream Tunnel is true. You hear it about a mile away. It makes you feel like a rock star. It propels you. This year, I decided to forgo a kiss from a Wellesley student, and instead channel their energy into an increased focus on my running. It was incredible, but instead of letting their screams push me to run harder than I should, I made a quick mental check to see how I was doing. At the halfway point I felt very good, especially considering my time for the first half (1:31:49) was, until just a month ago, only 19 seconds off of my PR in the half marathon. I've had two marathons fail miserably before (Chicago 2008 and Virginia Beach 2009), and in both of those races, I knew by the half that it was going to be a bad run. This time, though, I felt like I had a lot more juice in me, and was excited about the prospect of having a good time.

After Wellesley, I was in a zone. I knew Mike would be coming up at Mile 19, but before then, I would have to tackle the first two of the Newton Hills. I almost missed the first one. I think I was so focused that I didn't even realize it was one of the hills until I crested it and realized I was going downhill. The second one, after the turn onto Comm. Ave., I was ready for. But again, it didn't seem too bad.

But, these few miles in Newton also saw the first time that I had slowed to below my goal pace. Mile 17, at 7:25, was 7 seconds slower than goal. I wasn't too worried about it, since I knew I had more than 2 minutes in the bank, but I refocused myself to stay on pace for the next mile. Mile 18 was better, a 7:18 pace, or just 1 second slower than goal. But Mile 19 was when it started to get tough. It was supposed to be a fast mile, coming down from the second hill. I started feeling that my legs were heavy. I realized that I didn't know whether I should let up a bit and save my legs for Heartbreak Hill, or just try to run it fast. I picked something in the middle, ending up with a 7:13, or 9 seconds slower than goal.



And then, just as I started to get worried that my pace was slipping through my fingers, there I saw them. I thought it would just be Mike (he said he would be by himself), but it was a big group of Front Runners cheering wildly for me! Todd, Derek, Chris, Mike, they were all there! I could tell they knew that I was running really well. And they were ecstatic! And then Mikey jumped in, and my next four miles were all within a second of my goal pace! It's amazing how much of an effect your friends can have on you, but as soon as I saw them and Mikey, I got a sudden, new burst of energy. And I went into my zone again.

For the next six miles, Mike ran by my side. Until we departed ways, I think I only said one word to him (an extremely faint, scratchy "Gatorade"). But I knew he knew I was so, so, so happy to have him there running by my side. And honestly, he did everything, everything right. He told me that I was doing great. He said I was running the race of my life. He said that I had trained so well and so hard that I was going to rock the race. He said everyone was going to be so happy for me. And he did this for six long miles, during which I said but one single word. And I couldn't have done it without him.

Unfortunately, I got all caught up in my zone that I totally missed my parents standing by Mile 20 cheering for me. But they saw me, and screamed their lungs out for me. I knew they were there, though, and even though I didn't get to see them, I took their energy as I went up Heartbreak Hill.


It was tough, but Mike talked me through it. "This is it, Dave! This is what you've been training for for six months! You got it, Dave!" As luck would have it, it was right at Heartbreak Hill that we caught up with Patrick. The three of us were able to work together up that hill. It was amazing. Just by our presence, we carried each other over the top of the hill. It was the hardest part of the marathon, and I had two friends alongside me to work my way up.

And then, finally, after a brutal and long haul, we had made it. My legs were beat, but my head was clear: I had just finished the hardest part of the Boston Marathon, and I was on a solid PR pace. Nothing was going to stop my from having the run of my life!

The downhill after Heartbreak Hill was nice. I was spinning my legs quickly, leaning forward, letting gravity take me down. Miles 20, 21, 22 and 23 were all within a second of my goal pace. Everything was going well.


And then I started to slow down a little bit. Patrick had pulled the tiniest bit ahead of me. We had made our way into Brookline, and the crowds were going crazy. But I was starting to lose focus. I had a hard time converting the spectators' cheers to energy; instead, I seemed to block them out and try to muster my own strength to go forward. By Mile 25, I was struggling. What was supposed to be a 7:14 mile turned into a 7:34. But I knew I only had 1.2 miles to go. I broke it down into 200's, telling myself it was just over 9 times around the track. Still that last mile seemed to take forever.

And then came the moment I was dreading, the little underpass beneath Mass. Ave. It's just a little ramp that you have to go down and up, over not even a tenth of a mile, but why the hell do you have to go up a ramp at Mile 25.5 of a marathon I just don't understand. Luckily, Mike stuck with me all the way until we turned right on Hereford Street.

And that was it. I thanked him and said good-bye, no hug or anything, and off I went to finish my race. It was like I was left all alone with 30,000 runners and for a moment I got sad and nervous. But then I decided I would honor all the work Mike did by pushing myself hard for that last half mile. And when Mile 26 came, I saw my time was at 3:05:25. I realized that I had about 90 seconds to finish the race and get under a 3:07. So I mustered up every last drop of energy I had left in me to make it to the finish line. I knew it was in my grasp. And when I got to towards that finish line, I knew it was going to be huge!


And then I made it!!! A huge PR of over two minutes!!! On an unforgiving course, a race where the best runners in the world come to compete, not only did I just break my own personal record, I shattered it. I far exceeded my goal! I felt like a superstar. I felt like I conquered Boston! Like I came back and rose up after a year and a half of struggling. It was an amazing feeling.


I saw Patrick right at the finish line and we gave each other a huge hug. We had both done it! Just a few weeks ago, neither one of us were sure how we would do, but we both rocked it!


Of course, I wasn't the only one running on Monday. I am so, so proud of my teammates who raced as well. And while everyone had a different race experience, we are all able to say that we finished the Boston Marathon this year; the oldest, most fabled and prestigious road race in the world. And we've all become part of history. Congratulations to Kelsey, Jerry, Lavar, Kevin, Daniel, Patrick, Richard, Paul, Audra, Rachel H, Rachel K, and Janice. You all make me so proud to be a Front Runner, and I feel so honored to be able to share the road with you.

Thank you to Koach Kelsey. I am not exaggerating when I say I literally would not have been there (and I don't know if I would ever have run a marathon) if it weren't for you. When I joined the club in 2006, you made me feel at home. And when I started running marathons, you gave me the physical training I needed. But most of all, you've been a wonderful friend, mentor and coach. Thank you so much for all that you have done for me and the club.


And thank you Mike Terry. You know how much I love you! There's no one who I would have rather shared those last 6 miles with. You're an amazing friend, and I'm so lucky to have you in my life.

Thanks to everyone else who has supported me, encouraged me, run with me, or just put up with my running. You've all made me a part of who I am today. I am truly blessed to be surrounded by such great people.

Finally, I am proud to say that Audra, Janice and I have raised over $5000 for the Trevor Project in our quest to run the Boston Marathon. To those of you who have donated, thank you. Your contributions will make an enormous difference in the lives of LGBT youth. For the rest of you, it is not too late. Please considering making a donation by clicking on the image below. Thank you so much.


Tuesday, February 15, 2011

AIDS Service Center, Track Meet and Valentine's Day, Chinese New Year, The Trevor Project

Lots of running and eating news to report this past month.  Sorry for cramming it all into one long post!

First, I am so super proud to say that I've received an award from the AIDS Service Center NYC for the work that I've done for them on behalf of Front Runners New York.  FRNY has had a great relationship with ASC over the past few years.  For those of you who aren't familiar with ASC's work, they're a community organization that provides services for New Yorkers living with HIV/AIDS.  Their programs include peer education and training, harm reduction, specialized women's services, HIV counseling and testing, and a host of other services that help NYC's most vulnerable individuals and families survive and thrive in the face of HIV/AIDS.


I've actually been involved with ASC for longer than I have with FRNY, since my good friend David Berman used to work with them.  (By the way, ASC holds a great party every June, Safer Sex in the City, which I've been proud to be on the planning committee for.)  FRNY's partnership with ASC started out in 2009 when FRNY's Charitable Foundation provided ASC's clients with hundreds of holiday gifts bags (which consisted of hats and gloves and the like).  We then gave ASC a large financial gift so that they could continue doing the valuable work that they do.  In honor of FRNY's gift, ASC named their new wellness room the "Front Runners New York Wellness Room," and even held a dedication ceremony for it.  That's when I, along with several other Front Runners, received our awards, which honored us for our "spirit of giving" which has "touched the lives of countless New Yorkers living with HIV/AIDS."


It was a really touching gesture by ASC.  I'm so proud of the work that they do, and so happy that FRNY has been able to develop a great partnership with them.

The picture above is of me and Sharen Duke, the Executive Director of ASC, and a current member of FRNY.  Sharen actually ran in the 2010 New York City Marathon wearing the Front Runners singlet, and finished in an amazing 4:22:29, earning her the 3rd fastest FRNY Women's Masters time in history.  Awesome job, Sharen!!!


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Remember my post about cheering with the Front Runners at the ING New York City Marathon?  Well, the New York Road Runners did a story about our cheering group in their New York Runner Magazine!  Check it out below!



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This past week was a week of tough races.  Last Thursday was NYRR's Thursday Night at the Races.  I decided to run the mile on the track.  It was my first track race since last year's FRNY Track Meet, when I did the 1200m in the Distance Medley Relay with Team Joy Luck Club, and only the second time I've ever raced a mile in my life (the first one was at the FRNY Track Meet in 2008... a 5:33.42 that may forever be out of my reach now...).

I knew this wasn't going to be the race of my life.  I had done a speed workout on Tuesday, and then a pretty fast 6-mile loop on Wednesday, so my legs were tired even before the race started.  I really wanted to break 5:45, though, but wasn't quite sure if I'd be able to do it.

I was really nervous.  There's something about running on the track that terrifies me.  Maybe it's the fact that everyone is standing in the middle of the track watching you.  Maybe it's that in short distances, you're pushing your body harder than you ever would in a road race.  Or maybe it's that the track sometimes seems dominated by people who are running 4-minute miles.  Either way, I felt a huge pit in my stomach, a feeling of utter terror that I haven't experienced before a race in years, if ever.

Then the starting gun went off.  Through the sheer randomness of how we lined up, I was placed in lane one.  All of the other nine runners in my heat were outside of me on the track.  That meant that everyone had to merge together after the start, except for me.  So for the first 75 meters or so, I was out ahead of everyone.  I didn't know what was going on, and where everyone else was.  Then I realized that I was out in front.  I hate running in front of everyone, since I'm so bad at pacing myself.  Koach Kelsey saw me kind of confused and panicking around the bend, and he yelled out to me to run my own race.  It was definitely comforting to hear that.

Finally, as I was finishing the first lap, I was passed.  This was actually a relief to me, as it made me think I wasn't going out too crazy fast.  My first lap was 41 seconds.


Around lap three was when I wanted the race to end.  I had completely forgotten that feeling you get when you run really, really fast at the Armory, and your mouth, throat and lungs can't deal with the dry, disgusting indoor air there.  I felt like I needed a giant glass of water, but I still needed to go five more times around that damn track.  And I started getting passed by two more people.  Kelsey was telling me to keep up with them, he said he knew I could do it.  I knew I could too, but my legs and my breathing just weren't cooperating.  I felt myself slowing down rather than trying to reach them.  I saw that my splits had fallen closer to 44 seconds.  I just couldn't get myself to push harder.  It was a bit disappointing, especially when I was passed again towards the end of the mile.

But I knew I could still make my time of 5:45.  I managed to pull it together for the last 100 meters, pump my arms harder and broaden my stride a bit, and I charged for that finish line.  I put everything I could into that finish, and got there, at 5:44, just in the nick of time!  OMG, I was so happy!  So relieved that it was over.  So glad I had accomplished what I set out to do.  It was a great feeling.  Even though it was 11 seconds slower than my mile from 2008, it made me realize that I have it in me to run fast, to set a goal and then grasp it.  It's a great feeling.

But it wasn't just me that got myself around the track those eight times.  I think I saw Kelsey 16 times during those eight loops, as he ran back and forth and back and forth to encourage me to do my best.  And then there were at least a dozen other Front Runners, at various points along the track, always cheering me on whenever I ran by.  What a great way to run a race, knowing that I'm being helped out every step of the way by my friends and teammates.  Thanks to all of you who pushed and pulled me along!

After last Thursday's experience, I think I'll run the Mile again at the FRNY Annual Indoor Track Meet in March.  You should join me!  Click below to register:


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Sunday was the Valentine's Day Marathon / Half-Marathon / 10K, the Valentine's Day version of the free race that I did with my parents on Christmas Day.  I had gone to the race intending to run three loops (about 19 miles), but instead, ran-walked one loop, through treacherous ice and snow.  It was brutal, slippery, and dangerous, and it took me almost an hour and a half to finish.  But once I realized that this wasn't going to be my long run of the week, it was actually kind of fun.

Here's a picture of the 10K group.  Some other Front Runners decided to run a second loop.  No, thank you!


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It was Chinese New Year a little while ago.  I invited a bunch of Front Runners out to me and Fatai's annual Chinese New Year's Dinner and Booze Fest.  I decided to do things a little differently this year.  Last year, the gays all complained that the restaurant's set menu was too weird and Chinese-y.  Nobody liked the jellyfish and the baby octopus, and the fried flounder, and blah blah blah.  So this year, I pre-picked all the dishes and just ordered everything a la carte.  I was a little nervous, since it's hard to order for 24 picky gays (and Rachel, a vegetarian).  But everyone uniformly said that the food was MUCH better than last year, so I think it was a big success.


Here's what I ordered.  For just $25 per person, we all filled up on some really tasty Chinese food, and around 20 bottles of wine (plus a bottle of Stoli--thanks, Anthony!).

Soup:
-minced beef, egg white and parsley soup (veggie bean curd soup for Rachel)


Meats:
-peking duck
-sliced beef w/ black mushrooms + bamboo shoots
-pork chop w/ peking sauce
-steamed chicken w/ mushrooms
-diced pickles and bacon w/ snow peas
-beef chow fun



Seafood:
-steamed buffalo fish
-prawns w/ crispy walnuts in mayonnaise (always a big hit!)
-salt baked squid w/ chili
-clams w/ black bean sauce

Veggies:
-assorted veggies + mushrooms buddhist style
-braised eggplant
-braised bean curd w/ brown sauce
-sauteed snow pea shoots


Here are some pictures of the food, fun and booze:




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OMG, it's less than nine weeks to the Boston Marathon!  I'm definitely getting nervous, even though I think my training has been pretty good so far.

I was chatting with my friend Audra the other day, who's also running Boston, and she came up with a great idea.  She told me that last fall, she went out for a bike ride over the George Washington Bridge, where she saw rainbow streamers left by individuals and a few "You Are Not Alone" signs bolted to the railings.  This was shortly after Tyler Clementi, a gay student at Rutgers, had committed suicide.  Audra approached me with the idea of joining together with some other LGBT runners to raise money for the Trevor Project, a national organization that provides a 24-hour confidential suicide hotline for gay and questioning youth.

I have a special fondness for the Trevor Project because, as you might remember from an earlier post, several Front Runners and I created a video as part of the Trevor Project's "It Gets Better" campaign.  If you haven't seen it, or would like to see it again, click below (note that Janice who appears in the video with me is also running in Boston and also raising money for the Trevor Project; so is Paul, who appears towards the end):


In this time when incidences of anti-gay bullying and suicides of gay youth are rampant, the Trevor Project's work is so important.  I'm so proud to be able to support an organization that is working to save the lives of LGBT youth all over the country.  Please join me in donating to the Trevor Project by clicking below so they can continue their amazing work.  Thank you!




Thursday, October 21, 2010

Blue Line Run and Chicken

This Sunday was the Front Runners annual Blue Line Run.  It's definitely my favorite run of the year.  Every year, three weeks before the New York City Marathon, FRNY meets in Brooklyn and runs the last 20 miles of the marathon, from Brooklyn through Queens, Manhattan, the Bronx, and Manhattan again, to end up at the finish line in front of Tavern on the Green.  I had missed the Blue Line Run for the past two years because it was the same weekend as the Chicago Marathon, so I was especially excited about doing it this year.

And so were a LOT of other Front Runners.  We had 120 people show up to the start!!!  (I remember when I did it three years ago, there were maybe 30-40 people.)  We also had about 15 FRNY volunteers to hand out Gatorade along the course, and Steve and Jim were on bikes directing us.  It was quite an impressive production and I think everyone really enjoyed the run, especially the FRs who are doing the marathon in three weeks.


I, however, had kind of a sucky run.  You may remember from my last post that I got kicked really hard in the knee at the MightyMan Triathlon a couple of weeks ago.  Well, that kind of messed up my running for two weeks.  I had run exactly three times in the two weeks between MightyMan and the Blue Line Run.  The first time, three days later on a Wednesday fun run, I was only able to run about a mile and half before my knee got in so much pain that I couldn't even bend it without it hurting.  I then took off the next week and made an appointment with Jordan Metzl for the following Tuesday.  Dr. Metzl looked at the x-ray and said I was fine, that it was probably just a bruise on my knee, and that I should not change my plans to run the marathon.  So the next day, Wednesday, I went back to the fun run.  At mile three, my knee felt fine, so I decided to do the six mile loop.  But it hit me at mile five, and I pretty much had to walk the last mile.  I was pissed.  Dane and Ryan passed me and I was mean to them.  Michael O asked me afterwards how my run was and I pretty much snapped at him.  I was just so upset that after all this time (about a YEAR) of dealing with my butt issue, I finally start to get back to the point where I'm running consistently, and I friggin f-ck up my knee.  UGH.  I was, however, slightly reassured by the fact that I was able to run longer than I had the previous Wednesday, and took it as a sign that I would improve, hopefully before the marathon.

So on Sunday, for the Blue Line Run, my hope was just to finish.  I had run the first 10 miles at about an 8-minute pace, with Marty and Paul, and I felt pretty good.  Then, turning onto First Avenue from the 59th Street Bridge, I had a pretty abrupt and devastating downward crash.  My knee locked up and my energy level came spiraling down.  I stopped to stretch my legs at 60th Street.  By this time, most of the people in the 8-minute mile pack had passed me, so I ended up slowing down drastically.  I told myself I would probably just run across 90th Street and cut off the top of Manhattan and the Bronx (saving 5 miles).  I spent the next mile and a half jogging and sometimes walking, stopping another time or two to stretch.  When 90th Street came, I started feeling fine again, so I decided to run to 125th Street.  The stretch down 5th Avenue from 125th to 90th Streets is, I think, one of the harder parts in the Marathon, and an area where I don't run very often; so I wanted to get at least that part of the course in.

I spent the next mile and a half with more jogging/walking/stretching until I fiiiinnnally got to 125th Street.  As I contemplated turning left onto 125th Street to cut the run short, the Willis Avenue Bridge stared me in the face, taunting me, enticing me to cross into the Bronx.  Against my better judgment, I decided to cross the bridge, intending to finish the entire twenty mile run.  But as soon as I crossed, I started to really feel like I was falling apart.  My knee was hurting, I was tired, my butt was aching, and I was getting chaffed from my shorts.  But I pushed on, taking more frequent walk breaks and stretching my legs.  I felt miserable.  I finally decided that I would run to 90th Street and just take a taxi to the finish.  That last mile, from 110th to 90th, I felt would never end.  It seemed like I was practically walking it.  Rob and some others were manning the water stop at 100th Street, and when I saw them, I felt so embarrassed for being so beat up after only 17 miles, and lagging so far behind people who I should have been running with.  I knew I wouldn't be able to finish the 20 miles, so I mustered all the energy I had to basically crawl down to 90th Street, where I promptly jumped into a taxi to take me to Tavern on the Green.

It was a humiliating, completely disappointing run.  And in that taxi ride, as I tried to come to terms with the run, I wondered if I should admit defeat and withdraw from this year's NYC Marathon.  But at the same time, I was somewhat encouraged.  This was my first real run after two weeks of very little running, and I did manage to do 17 miles.  My knee felt fine for the first 10 miles, which is such a huge difference from just a week ago, when I couldn't even run two miles without pain.  And I'm guessing that part of the reason I ran out of steam during the run was because I had one or two too many beers the night before at Coach Rachel's housewarming party.  (Damn you, Rachel!)

Post Blue Line Run (Photo by Ted Paszek)

So right now, I have mixed feelings about the marathon.  I still haven't decided if I'm going to go through with it.  But I've gone running since Sunday, and my knee feels pretty good.  My plan is to run one more long run this weekend, 20 or 22 miles, and see how I feel.  If I can finish it and feel good, I'll do the marathon.  If not, then I guess it's just not going to happen for me this year.  It would be really disappointing, but I'm not going to force it if it isn't in the cards.  Besides, I've never been a spectator for the NYC Marathon, and I've never worked the FRNY Water Station at Mile 24, so watching the marathon could be fun too.  I guess I'll see how this weekend's run goes.
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Sunday after the Blue Line Run, I went over to Mike Terry's house to help him cook dinner for some of the runners who were coming over.  We decided to make soul food because it is sooooul delicious.  :-)

We made "fried" chicken, mac and cheese, sweet potatoes and collard greens.  The fried chicken was actually oven baked, but it was nice and crispy because we made a crust of crushed seasoned cornflakes.  I bought whole chickens which we had to butcher ourselves.  I've butchered hundreds of chickens before, but I've never been really good at it.  And I always end up leaving the oysters hanging on the carcass, which is the best part.  Mikey was cringing at how much meat I was wasting.  But I don't really mind since I usually freeze the carcass for soup at a later date, and a little extra meat on the bones makes the soup taste good.




Mikey made the mac and cheese, which was delicious.  I need to get the recipe from him.  The collard greens and the sweet potatoes were pretty simple, though.  I found some smoked ham pieces at Western Beef that I was able to add to the greens, and I put in a touch of brown sugar and vinegar.  For the sweet potatoes, I cut them up into little medallions, mixed them with the juice and zest of an orange, some salt pepper and more brown sugar, and baked.  I love the freshness that orange zest provides.  Yumm.


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After Sunday's disastrous run, I was able to cheer myself up by registering for next year's Boston Marathon.  Registration opened at 9am on Monday.  After several attempts to get through the BAA's servers, I was able to register around 10:30.  Unfortunately, the race filled up at 5:03 Monday evening, so a lot of people who were planning to register didn't get in.  I'm kind of bummed about this, since part of the reason last year's Boston was so much fun was that there was a big group of Front Runners there (16 of us running, with lots more cheering).  I'm definitely going to miss being part of a big group this year.  To the Front Runners who qualified for Boston but weren't able to register, you guys are a huge inspiration to me, and I'm going to run the best race I can run in your honor.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I DID IT!!!

I am now a Boston Marathon finisher!  It wasn't easy.  In fact, those hills were harder than I expected, despite all the warnings.  But thanks to the support of the Front Runners and my parents on the course, all of you who encouraged me along the way, thousands and thousands of spectators, and some crazy Wellesley girls, I made it through all 26.2 miles of the 114th Boston Marathon.

First off, my time: 3:23:10--an average 7:45 pace.  I am very, very pleased with this.  It was nowhere near a PR (I've had five faster marathons), but considering the course, my limited training, my injury, and just the fact that it was BOSTON, I couldn't be happier.

Part of the reason I'm so pleased is that the entire experience was just so wonderful.  By the time I arrived in Boston, I knew I was ready.  I didn't have the mileage that I had before my prior marathons, but thanks to the FRNY long run group, and especially Mikey B and Matt who made sure I got out of bed every Saturday morning, despite bitter colds and harsh winter winds, for our scheduled 9am runs, I knew I could conquer 26.2 miles of Boston roads. When I made it to the expo, I felt charged.  It was so invigorating to look around and see runners who were among the best in the sport--only about 10% of marathoners qualify for Boston, even less in the most competitive 18-34 age group--to just be among them, feeling like I was one of them. Whatever happened on Monday, I knew I would always be a Boston Marathon qualifier.

The night before the race, 15 Front Runners got together for a pasta dinner at the lovely Antonio's of Beacon Hill.  There were actually only 5 of us at the dinner running the next day; the rest were Front Runner supporters.  The fact that it was mostly supporters I think calmed my nerves a bit, and I was able to step back and realize that the reason I run is because I love it, and the friends I've met through running, and that first and foremost I was running the marathon to have fun.  

The most memorable thing of the night (aside from Antonio's homemade cavatelli fra diavolo, below) was Koach Kelsey's pre-marathon pep talk.  Kelsey gives the same talk before every marathon, and I've heard it a million times, but it always gives me a bit of a chill when I hear it, and it definitely puts me in the right mindset to be ready to race.  This time, though, it brought some tears to my eyes as I realized how far I had gone and how hard I had worked to get here.  I just knew that I was going to run a great race.


After one (and only one) glass of wine to calm the nerves [thanks, Michael O!] Mikey, Matt and I were asleep by 11pm.  I actually slept very well that night, and when the alarm woke us up at 5am, I was ready to race!  The next 5 hours were spent getting ready, taking a loooooong bus ride out the 26.2 miles to the start in Hopkinton, and mentally preparing for the race.  We randomly ran into Ramon at the bus pickup area, so we all stayed together until the start.


Finally, the time came to head over to the corrals.  I was surprised at how calm I was feeling.  It felt great not feeling the pressure to get a particular time.  I think the fact that I was recovering from an injury actually helped me to relax for this race, not get too stressed out, and take the first few miles easy--which is what everyone says to do when running Boston.

I had decided to wear a 3:20 pace band, but I wasn't married to it.  It was only in the last week or so before the marathon that I decided I was going to wear a 3:20 band.  My first goal, of course, was just to finish (this was all the more important given that I had spent $250 at the expo buy bright blue Boston Marathon branded running gear that I wouldn't be able to wear if I didn't finish).  I would have been extremely happy with a 3:30 or 3:25, and I would have been ecstatic if I could do it without walking.  So as the start horn sounded, I was off to run the fun run of my life.

Somehow my watch only ever fails me in marathons, and it didn't record my last 9 miles.  But here's what I could piece together.

Mile 1: 7:22.  I think my pace band said I was supposed to do about a 7:36, so it was a little fast.  I vowed to slow down a bit for the next mile.  (I don't have the pace band any more because I threw it out at around mile 21 when I realized that I wasn't going to do a 3:20, and decided I just wanted to have fun rather than stress about how far behind I was).  About half a mile into the race, there's this little tiny hill.  Nothing serious, but it just made me realize, boy, these first 15 miles aren't really all downhill as I had maybe convinced myself they were.  

Mile 2:  7:08.  Uh, the pace band said 7:40ish, so this was way fast, oops.  I seemed to have gotten swept up in with all the runners around me.  I did a quick mental check to remind myself that everyone around me qualified with about a 3:09-3:10 and was probably aiming to run a good 20 seconds a mile faster than me.  I slowed down and tried to get comfortable with people passing me.

Mile 3:  7:29.  Better.  It was around time that I began to notice my butt/hamstring issue.  Nothing major, and it didn't cause any pain or alter my gait, but I did become cognizant of it, and for the entire rest of the race.

Mile 4:  7:21.  

Mile 5:  7:28.  

Mile 6:  7:30.  The course starts to level off a bit starting here, so I try to settle into an even pace.

Mile 7:  7:21

Mile 8:  7:27.  Derek Petti said he was gonna be here cheering.  I looked for him, and I didn't see him.  I hate him.

Mile 9:  7:33

Mile 10:  7:40

Mile 11:  7:49

Mile 12:  7:36.  As you enter each town, there's was a big Adidas banner on the course that says something like "Run Natick Better" and the like.  The "Run Wellesley Better" banner had a drawing of a couple of Wellesley girls screaming "Kiss me!"  I contemplated whether I would kiss any.

Miles 13-14:  15:16.  This is the scream tunnel!  I got distracted and forgot to press lap.  Everything they say about this is true.  You can hear the girls screaming from almost a mile away.  As I approached, and the screaming got louder and more intense, I felt chills run down my side.  I felt like I finally got to experience what people were raving about, and it felt even more amazing than I imagined.  I stopped to give one random girl a kiss on the cheek, and I ran off.  But the screams kept coming, it was like the tunnel that would never end, and I kept getting drawn into it.  What felt like a quarter mile after my first kiss, I kissed another Wellesley girl.  I was so giddy!

Mile 15:  7:50

Mile 16:  7:39.  This was my favorite mile!  First, I saw Sandi, Blossom, Katrina and Sharon.  Sandi was wearing her big gay rainbow cheerleader vest, so I noticed her right away and gave her a big hug and kiss.  In my rush, I failed to notice the poster Sharon was holding, which I think was awesome.


Then, less than a mile later, I saw another FRNY group.  This time it was Mike Terry, John MacConnell, Derek and Jim.  I almost missed them because I was on the right side of the street and they were cheering on the left.  So I cut across the street and gave them all hugs and kisses.  That was so fun!


Mile 17:  8:05.  The next four miles were not as much fun.  By the time I hit the first of four Newton hills, my pace had already slowed from the 7:20s to the 7:40s.  My legs were starting to get tired after the first 16 miles of downhill pounding.  My tactic was to look slightly down so I wouldn't see how far the top was, shorten my stride, and just keep friggin' running till I got there.  I kept telling myself that none of the hills were particularly long--maybe a half a mile at the most--and that it would soon be downhill again.

Mile 18:  (My stopwatch for some reason stopped recording the laps... but all the rest of the miles were in the 8:00-8:10 range).  Ugh, this second hill was steeper than the first one!  Don't look up, shorten that stride, run like the dickens.

Mile 19:  With the first two hills done, mile 19 provides a little bit of a respite.  At this point, I realized that I was probably gonna finish this thing.  So there was a bit of a boost during this nice downhill stretch.  However, I also knew that the extra minute that I had banked from running a faster first half had just about disappeared, and I wasn't going to be able to maintain what I needed to do to break 3:20.  So I took off the pace band, and decided to just run the last six or seven miles for fun.  It was actually quite liberating as I tossed the band to the street...I felt that I could run the race I wanted to run, instead of being tied the stupid mile splits.

Mile 20:  The third hill.  I told my parents to stand right at mile 20 so I could have their support before I headed up Heartbreak Hill (the fourth hill).  But knowing they were there waiting for me definitely pushed me up the third hill, which ended up not being too bad.  After I crested that hill, I started looking at the street signs, looking for the corner where I had told my parents to cheer for me. This little game that I was playing motivated me to make it to each successive sign, until I found Sumner Ave, where my parents were super excited to see me! 


Seeing my parents was what I needed to get myself up Heartbreak Hill.  Honestly, the placement of that hill, the longest and steepest one of the marathon, 21 miles into the race is just plain wrong.  As I trudged up the hill, I felt like I was going at a snail's pace.  It was so tough.  And as I kept looking up to see when the hill would end, it seemed like I wasn't getting anywhere close to the top.  But I just kept going at it, step by step, absolutely refusing to stop or walk, and somehow I made it up there.

When I reached that top, I felt such exhilaration!  I stared Heartbreak Hill down and kicked it in the ass.  It wasn't fast, or pretty, but I had conquered it.  At this point, I knew that I was on my way to finishing the Boston Marathon.  Even though I still had five miles to go, I had just reached the pinnacle, and I was not giving up.

Mile 21:  OK, to be honest, I don't remember very much after Heartbreak Hill.  Around mile 22, I saw Rich standing there cheering.  I almost missed him since he wasn't wearing any FRNY gear, and it wasn't till I had run right by him that I realized it was him.  For a millisecond, I was so sad that I missed him, so I had to turn around and circle back to give him a proper hug and kiss.  I lost a few seconds there, but I was feeling so spent by that point, and when I saw Rich I got a big boost of energy to carry me through to the next mile.

Over the next couple of miles, I saw the Citgo sign off in the distance.  One of my earliest childhood memories is sitting in the back of the car with my brother when my parents drove to Boston's Chinatown, and watching the flashing red and white lights of the Citgo sign.  In high school, I spent many a late night at the IHOP that sat in its shadow, which has since been demolished and replaced with a boutique hotel.  My mind at this point was wandering, and I nearly missed Loren cheering for me around mile 24.  I was in such a zone that I also nearly missed a gaggle of FR men cheering me on at mile 25...Rob, Kelsey, Michael O, Peter and Todd.  They didn't get hugs and kisses, though--Kelsey would have wanted me to keep running.

As if everything I had gone through so far wasn't enough, the planners of the Boston Marathon make you run--at about mile 25.5--underneath the Mass Ave overpass, which means going up a little hill so close to the finish. Ugh.  But after a few turns, there I was, on Boylston Street, staring at the finish straight ahead of me.  It was about a half mile ahead of me, the longest half mile I've ever run.

I ran what seemed like my fastest pace all day to get to that line, and when I reached it, I had FINISHED the Boston Marathon!  I started tearing up immediately, realizing how tremendous this achievement was for me.  It was a good day.  In the end, I was very pleased with my time, thrilled that I didn't walk, and just ecstatic at the fact that I am now a Boston Marathon finisher.  



Thanks to my parents and some very good friends, I had an amazing time in Boston.  Thanks again to everyone who helped to get me to the finish, whether by cheering for me, training with me, or just encouraging and supporting me.  I couldn't have done it without you!


(Thanks to Ramon, Jim and Kieran for some excellent photos!)

Friday, April 16, 2010

Four years and three months.

I am getting ready to go to Boston tomorrow.  On Monday, I will take part in the 114th running of the Boston Marathon.

These past few days I’ve been giving a lot of thought to how much I’ve developed as a runner since I started, and how much I’ve developed as a person through running.

I have never been athletic.  On the contrary, growing up in the Boston suburbs, I was always the fattest or second fattest kid in my class.  I was extremely insecure about my weight and fitness, dreaded gym class, and was always humiliated by being the last person picked or the last one to finish.  In fourth grade gym class, Mr. Driscoll made me sit out the class and watch because we were doing gymnastics and I couldn’t run fast enough to the stupid vault to propel fat ass over it.  I sat on the side crying in front of everyone in my class.

In middle school, my parents sent me to the Lexington Youth Soccer league.  And although I enjoyed the game, I was not any good at it, and I was never given any opportunity to try.  Although it was a noncompetitive league, there didn’t seem to be any room in  it for someone fat and slow.  While the fast kids got to play almost the entire game, and got the offensive positions where they received all the glory of scoring, I rarely got to play for more than 5 minutes before getting subbed out.

I started smoking in high school, at age 15.  I continued to smoke through college, law school and beyond, between 10-15 cigarettes a day.  During this time, I had no interest in being physically active, and would feel my heart pounding and be short of breath after climbing just a flight of stairs.

After law school, I lived in New Mexico for a year.  And although it was one of the most rewarding experiences in my life, I ended up breaking my leg in a skiing accident.  I was immobile for several months, with few friends, nothing to do, and way too easy access to the Santa Fe drive thru Taco Bell.


When I came to New York, I knew I needed to make a change in my life.  For my 2006 New Year's resolution, I vowed to start running.  Having not run at all in many, many years I signed up for the Fred Lebow Classic 5-miler on January 8, 2006.  Waking up early Sunday morning was not something I was accustomed to, let alone to go out for a run.  But I wrested myself out of bed that day and made it over to Central Park.

That race was so hard.  I was dry heaving less than a mile into it, and it seemed like it would just never end.  But slowly, the miles ticked off, and 44:24 later, I was at the finish line (8:52 pace), with the biggest feeling of accomplishment ever.  I had never run that fast and that long in my life.  Right then and there, I knew I would love this sport.  I couldn't wait to run another race, and to get better and faster.

The following Saturday, I went to my very first Front Runners New York fun run.  Of course, I didn't know anyone.  I was insecure and shy all over again.  But through the great warmth and welcoming reception that I got from then-president Kelsey and all the other Front Runners, I soon felt like that's where I belonged.  Two months after I joined FRNY, I ran my first half, the Brooklyn Half (2:06:06, 9:37 pace), and by the end of the year I ran the ING New York City Marathon in 4:12:47 (9:38 pace).

During this time, it was just so amazing to me that people, many of whom I barely even knew, would congratulate me, support me or encourage me after my races.  I wasn't the fastest, or the cutest, or the most sociable, but I was made to feel welcomed.  I was so proud to be part of a community, a large family of gay runners.

Three days from now--four years and three months after my very first race--I will be running just a few miles away from where I grew up, following in the footsteps of some of the most elite runners in the world.  The Boston Marathon is the most legendary, venerable race in the world.  It is the only marathon, other than the Olympics and Olympic Trials, which requires its runners to meet strict qualifying standards.

Four years and three months ago, I never would have thought that I'd be a runner, let alone a marathon runner.  But three days from now, I will be at the start of the greatest marathon in the world.  To all of you who have helped me along the way--by running with me, encouraging me, coaching me, or just putting up with me when I was spending all my time running--thank you.  I will be running for you on Monday.



Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Taper, taper, taper. And a big hunk of beef.

I'm officially tapering now...  just six days left until the Boston Marathon!  There's a part of me that thinks it's a little bit ridiculous that I'm tapering, since my weekly mileage for the past couple of months has rarely gotten beyond 30.  But for this week, I've decided to cut out yoga, swimming and biking, and will just do a few easy runs at marathon pace.

Sunday was the NYRR TGL Run as One 4-Miler.  I had no intention of running this race.  But on Saturday, as I was doing my last longish run of the season, an 8-miler with Matt and Mikey B, Matt wore the race t-shirt, which was a fancy technical New Balance thing.  And later, Peter wanted company as he went to NYRR to pick up his bib, so I decided to go with him and sign up too to get my free t-shirt.

Nervous about running too fast a week before the marathon, I decided to just jog it, except for the last mile, where I stepped it up a bit.  My splits: 7:15, 7:13, 7:27, 6:42; 28:37 total.  This was my slowest 4-miler since April 2007.  But I felt pretty good, and I'm going into Boston feeling confident that I can finish it without messing up my butt/hamstring.


Tonight, I'm planning to go to the Armory to do mile repeats with Mikey at marathon pace.  I found it really helpful to do some miles at MP before Chicago because it gave me an idea of how much effort I should be expending at the start.  It's even more important to have proper pacing in Boston because the first half is downhill.

And for me especially, I think it's extremely important to go out at the proper pace.  In Chicago, I ran the entire race with the 3:10 pace group, and they helped to slow me down at the start and push me along towards the end.  There are no pace groups in Boston.  The idea, I think, is that because everyone is lined up according to their qualifying time, everyone around you will be running the same pace.  But I qualified with a 3:09 and have no plans to run anything near that...  which means I'll have to deliberately run slower than the people around me, and be OK with getting passed by everyone.  This is easier said than done.  And if I go out too fast to start, I'll have nothing left in me for the 5-6 miles of hills beginning at mile 16.

So my big question is what should my goal time and pace be?  I was originally thinking of letting Boston just be a totally "fun" marathon, and setting a pretty modest 3:30 goal.  But after my relatively successful final 20-miler last weekend, I think I can shoot for something a little more ambitious, in the 3:20 range.  That comes out to a 7:38 average pace, which I think is pretty doable for me right now, as long as I run smart.

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This week is Mike Terry's birthday, so on Sunday I invited a few of the Front Runners over in my first post-new-kitchen dinner party.

On the menu:

*Iceberg lettuce wedge with homemade blue cheese dressing and crumbled bacon
My first time making blue cheese dressing was a big success.  And it couldn't have been easier.  I don't know why anyone would buy it in a bottle if homemade is so much better, and literally only takes two minutes to make.  I just mixed together a quarter pound of blue cheese, about a cup of mayo, a few tablespoons of sour cream (left over from taco night on Thursday), some lemon juice (mom sent me a bunch of lemons from the tree in their yard in San Jose), and some grinds of black pepper.  That's it!

*Broiled sirloin steaks
I got a couple of 2-3 pound steaks at Fairway after the 4-miler.  I love broiling these steaks for a big group.  It's so easy, I just put sprinkled some salt and pepper on them and broiled for about 7-8 minutes a side (which was probably about one or two minutes too long in my new oven).  I then took the pan drippings, and added some half and half, whiskey, and about a tablespoon of ground pepper for a tasty au poivre sauce.  



* Mashed potatoes
Yummmm.....  I found a perfect use for all of that bacon grease I had from making bacon bits for the salad!

* Creamed spinach
This turned out good.  But it was looking a little too soupy, so I tried to thicken it up with a roux.      I was in a rush, and there was too much flour in the roux, and it didn't fully cook through in the oil, so when I added the roux to the spinach, I ended up getting big chunks of flour in it.  Yuck.  So then I had to pick out like a million little lumps of flour from the spinach, and a few people still ended up biting into a flourball.  Ugh.


Overall, I think the dinner was a big success.  We topped off everything with a delicious birthday ice cream cake that John brought from Baskin-Robbins.  I still have the left over 1/3 of a cake in my freezer.  But I plan to finish it by marathon weekend.  
;-)